Sweetie, of course you feel the loss. You wouldnt be human if you didn't.
I posted to you on my thread before I read this so I dont want to repeat myself.
I know it's hard for you to believe, but they all rewrite history. They do. You know your truth and that's what's important.
I also know how hard it is for you to let him go. He really needs to walk this journey alone. I know it goes against ever instinct you have, but it is true.
I don't know what will happen with your h, but I know this, you will get through this.
