The holiday was fine--it was the work that was a problem!
Add in the heat, a few minor health things, and I also find I am coming out of my numb state straight into cranky. Great. Nice.
I'm gonna read more on Serenity's thread. She's had it wicked hard, and look how well she is doing.
I don't want to be cranky. I do have to go through this next stage of mourning.
It might be real mourning now, slow, conscious, and painful. Cause I have been running or numb this whole time. Felt an awful lot of pain, of course, but everything pitched to a very high level or pushed under til I could deal with it "later."
