Great advice MrBond. I truly liked it. It is exactly what I need to do. Just go outside and scream. I have holding this crap in for so long that it is starting to boil over. Yes, I talk to my counseler and some friends but nobody can give me answers except my ex. She is the only one that knows exactly why and what happened and she is the last person that I am going to talk to. She has no clue that I feel this way. The last thing I told her was how much I loved her and left it at that. That is the best I could do to safe the relationship. She made her choice and it wasn't me so i don't need to dignify her with any kind of response from me or any chasing or pleading. Do that now it is time to move forward. Most people know why this happened. I really don't know the true reason. We had our little problems but not this. Oh well, I feel a little better now. These boards may make me sound like a retard but I can write what is on my chest and get it off my mind. I do hate this. And yes, I do hope she is hurting. I hope she is missing me and wondering if she just made the biggest mistake of her life. Please let this be happening.
