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[Jayce]

Previous post continued:
We still have sporadic discussions about H's attitudes & feelings about sex & intimacy. In ML, we are about where we were a few yrs. ago-once every week or two, sameoldsameold. Variety now is limited by age-related realitiy. He can function with or without pill, but either way, loses his E. Dr. made suggestion & I could tell H was like "eek! no!" I've explained the mechanics of the, um, appliance, but until yesterday he never would talk about it let alone agree to try it. We'll see. His confort zone is very narrow.
Since he was talking, I asked about his claim that he's never masturbated. "What did you do when you were aroused on a date but didn't act on it?" He said he went home & went to sleep. (says he's never heard of blue balls) Said he's never been so aroused or horny that he needed the release. Claims he never was scolded, threatened, caught as a kid. If that's true, I guess I've been trying to turn on a light switch that isn't connected to a power line. Sad. Depressing. If there ever was a time I wanted to be a hypnotist, this is it. Both to explore his past & to plant a new idea LOL-but not that funny.
He enjoys sex but never seems wildly enthusiastic. He'll initiate-even during the week once in awhile-but never in such a way that seems like craving. Always asking if I want to not telling me he wants to. How does a guy turn out this way? Especially w/brothers who were notorious hounds in their day.
We ML. We talk a little. Way better than 2 1/2 yrs ago. If I find that special hypnotist, I'll share! Have a good weekend,
Jayce