Probably, the would be the easist solution if I just found one that i liked. I am just having a downer day. Not the yesterday was that great. I am just really down. I am still in shock. I still don't understand why the lies from her. Doesn't really matter. She didn't want me and doesn't want me. I have to move on but I want her to hurt. I want her to feel the sense of loss that i feel. she has a new family. i want her to miss her old one. maybe she does. i cant read her mind. i want things to remind her of me and i want her feel the pain that i do. Selfish it may be but that is what i want. I want her to know that she destroyed our family, our relationship, i dont want her to know that she destroyed me and the cry everyday over her. Is is wrong to want these things. some say the WA will feel these feelings later. I dont know if that is true. If I stay away how is she going to be reminded of me? but if if come around she knows that she can still have me back anytime. i am staying away. I am just having a bad day. I am lost.
