I would recommend taking a short drive to a few streets over and screaming as loud as you can at the top of your lungs and letting go of all this pent up frustration and anxiety because it's there waiting to come out, you said so in a few earlier posts, you were shaking, you need to let that energy loose, it's going to come out, why not decide when and where, you can you know, you are allowed and you will feel better.
