QUICK! I need a shoulder...

[navajo]

I am trying to be very strong and "here" for my kids but today is rough!

If you've read my couple of threads, you'll know what I am dealing with right now. If not, that's OK too. I just need some support for a minute until I compose myself.

Along with having a WAW leaving me with 2 kids and bills I can't pay, I have spent the last 2 days in-processing for my new job with the 40% pay cut (it was either that, or be out on the street in 6 months).

I sat down and did the number crunching and it is becoming very obvious that I am not going to be able to keep the house even after filing bankruptcy. I am so afraid that this will be the blow that drives my son over the edge! He has said for years now that he doesn't ever want to leave here (S13) and he even wants to live here after he's married. I know this is just kid feelings, but dangit! I don't want him to have to face losing his mother and his home in the same timeframe! Not to mention that I am pretty sure we won’t be able to find a place that will allow us to keep his St. Bernard that has been his constant companion for 6 years.

WHY did she have to do this to us?!?!?!

I told her tonight that I would probably not be able to keep the house and she said “Well, sorry.”! I swear if I hear SORRY one more time, I’m gonna blow! If you’re sorry, then quit F***ING around with the other guy and come home!!!

I am just so scared and uncertain of what the immediate future will hold.

I DO know that we will eventually come to terms with this and begin to heal, but that doesn’t really help that much.

Sorry for venting, just needed a sympathetic ear.

Thanks,

Tom