WHAT YOU HAVE TO ASK YOURSELF IS..."WILL I MAKE THE CHOICE TO TAKE THIS PATH, THE PATH LESS TRAVELED, THE PATH FILLED WITH OBSTACLES AND ADVERSITY.....SO LISA, WILL YOU?
Yes, I will. I just need to give myself some grace along the way and give the 'how' over to God!
Originally Posted By: PEImom_of_3
Lisa ... I've often been reminded that I can't talk my way out of something I acted my way into (nickle .... ummmm can't remember who said it first ...). BTW, have you read DB and DR? PEI
Yes, I read through DR right when I arrived at my parents and loved it. But being that my head was nutso, it probably deserves a closer look again!
I actually feel like a need a giant white board to carry around with me to note all of the tips and quotes found here and in MWDs books! As if people in the RW didn't think I was weird enough going through this. LOL.
Originally Posted By: missherlove
I pray that God will give you strength to start your journey.
I know He will! I've reached out to a lot of my friends tonight and filled up the rest of my week with activities to give my mind a break from creating drama! Another baby step!
Hi Friends. I'd imagine H is back - his email yesterday said he was landing at 3 and would be up here Thu evening through Sat evening. He'll probably call on his way up here tomorrow to work out the details. I guess he's taking a leap and staying with his parents, I hope that doesn't make things go sour.
I've made plans through the weekend with friends, and have been spending time in the pool! I also started applying to some jobs back home.
Can't help but feel a bit disappointed after just talking to H. I know, I know, that means I had expectations, but boo, I am bummed. And perhaps it was because he stepped out of meeting at work to call, but his tone was short and 'blah'.
Turns out he's the 'busiest he has ever been' at work at won't be arriving until late tonight and then will leave early Saturday. I had gotten all dolled up to see him when I dropped her off today, and I guess that won't be happening.
I had a phone followup for an application that I sent in for a job back home and now have an interview scheduled for the 22nd. I will obviously need to talk to H before then about this and I would imagine the sooner the better as I make plans to return.
Just taking deep breaths, and repeating the mantra, I am doing this for me.
Having expectations are normal at this stage so you really need to be gentle on yourself.
Look...you will have times that you want to cry and scream..you will have times that you want to give up. Your minds, feelings will really F with you - they will. So know that you know this what do you plan to do to deal with it.
1) God will NOT give you more than you can bear. 2) No weapon formed against you will prosper.
Everything that you need is really in you. Now is the hard part - pulling it out.
I know you can do this - you are not alone. Know that..
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Feeling better after this afternoon...breathing...imagining stop signs. Finished the new silly Twilight book (that I loved!). Looking forward to time with friends over the coming days. And my DB coach appt tomorrow morning!
After a great night out with friends, not thinking much at all about my sitch, and actually being hit on a few times, I was feeling great........until I was heading for bed. Then the lonely feeling crept in again. Will that ever go away?
