Mach, I am updating my resume and looking for jobs..and reading stuff on this forum. WE are going for a bike ride..if I can handle it after that wine last night.
My C tells me to stop dwelling on him and what he is doing, too. I'm getting better, really. You probably can't tell because I just started to post..but up until a month or so ago, all I did was try to figure out why this was happening and how I could fix it. I am starting to let it alone more now. And i feel much better for it..so does he, if only because then he doesn't have to "talk"..you know how much guys like that.
I am reading as much as I can and as for asking questions..well I've never had a problem doing that..sometimes people get a little frustrated with me tho, cause I get stuck in a mode and can't see what others are trying to tell me. I do eventually get it.
the problem I'm having is this: I live 5 hours away from my friends and family (except my son and his family who I don't see much). I haven't worked for 5 years..and haven't worked in my field (IT) for 9 years. I don't know anyone here, never thought I'd be here longer than a year or so. Have 3 small dogs, so that ties me down some as far as traveling around. I need to update my skills or take some classes to get a new career to get back into the job market. I am working on that..have applied to a local college and just need to pick my classes. I have a couple of options: 1. Stay here, go to school, get a part time job, wait for H to come out of MLC. 2.Stay here, get some kind of full time job and wait for H to come out of MLC. 3. Sell house, pack up all my stuff, get a D (cause I'll need my share of the equity to get a place to live, etc), and move closer to where my friends and family are..get a job or go to school there and start a new life. 4. Sit around forever, feeling sorry for myself and let life pass me by.
I'm trying not to let this consume me. I'm dangerously close sometimes.
