Of course. That’s a terrible thing for a father to say to his daughter. I’m glad you know that it wasn’t true. Even when you know it isn’t true, it can be very hurtful and shocking that someone close to you is putting you down and trying to make you feel “less than”.
the thing is, i struggled with this for the longest time. i allowed it to define me even though it was at the forefront of my thoughts. underneath, it ate at me. when i would get close to my h and i had thoughts of wanting him. it would creep up and it would make me feel ... guilty and almost dirty for wanting him. and after we were intimate, i would feel guilty for enjoying it because it would creep up again and it's like a voice in your head saying "you're a whore".
it took my h to ask for d and getting me to an ic and on to this board, before i realized the effect it had on me.
my h thought i didn't "want" him. that sex wasn't a passion or a priority of mine. when deep down, i wanted him all the time but i didn't understand where the guilt was coming from. now i do and i can't have him.
