I've been reading this the whole time but have not said much.

You already have a huge mess. You have little or nothing to lose. Pretty much all you have left to lose is your fear. Much if what you are saying seems to still be informed by that fear. Let it go. Do what is right. It is easier to type it to you than to live it.

No one succeeds while the fear controls them.


Me 44 She 46
S13 D9
M18 T23
3 years DB'ing
Successfully busted