Spouse Suffering From Depression

[Lucky11too]

Adding on to the tattoo conversation after I posted, it continued. We texted for a few mins about his and then I half jokingly talked about me getting one and what/where. His response “mmm…We’ll look for a good spot” (totally flirty, right) Uh, I don’t think so! That annoyed me, so I was done with the conversation and didn’t respond. A ½ hour later another text “bad idea?” Uh yeah, you think, given that we are not together and he’s made no direction to get back together. I played it coy and just responded “I don’t know yet”. Then I was wrapping his present and I realized I wrapped it upside down, so I texted him to tell him to make sure to open it from the bottom. He jokes back about there being a bomb in there. Then (against my better judgment) I said I was going to bed and happy early birthday. But no response back. I am disappointed in myself now. There was obviously way too much communication going on yesterday. He didn’t choose me so he doesn’t get the pleasure of talking to me! I’m going to try to do better to just keep any contact about S only. It’s hard, when you’re used to continuous communication, but this was his choice!!!

So yeah, I going to try to avoid him today and no contact b/c I don’t want to suffer the wrath from his b-day day blues (I can hear now – “thanks for making my birthday so crappy” or something like that). I left the present at his mom’s like I said I would, and if he wants it, he can have it. So well see how it all goes. I’m feeling much better overall today, but I just need to remember to stay strong and set some boundaries. Enough is enough!