it was things my father had said to me in the past.
Sorry you had to go thru that. I understand how much words from your parents can hurt you, my "snakes" thrive on those feelings. I think this helps us see where some of your anger comes from.
You really let some good info out in that post.
There are some connections between what you H said and your father and your repsonse. Be aware of these triggers.
Do you see how people cross boundaries and you stuff it? You know it's wrong and it builds resentment in you. Find a healthy way to get it out.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.