Embarking on a New Adventure

[loweinsd51]

With heavy heart I am now in this forum. I have decided to enter into divorce mediation with my WW after a tumultuous 4 months of trying to break up her EA with an old HS friend. The regulars in the Infidelity forum helped me gain back my dignity and self respect.

I have been slowly grieving the end of our 16 year marriage...in March I was about 30% OK and 70% complete wreck. Now I'd say that I'm about 60% OK and 40% emotional. When I have my sad moments I don't try to suppress the emotions...just let the tears flow. I have a good support system with some other single dads and of course my immediate family. I have two beautiful DD's that I love with all my heart and will concentrate my efforts on their emotional well being.

I haven't thought about dating yet...heck, haven't even set the appointment yet for the mediator (STBXWW and DD's are going out of town next week).

I have read and recommend "Single Married Separated and Life After Divorce" by Myles Munroe. The book basically states that we must love ourselves first before we can even think about loving someone else. I'm on a self discovery (minds out of the gutter please) tour to get back to loving myself. I let my STBXWW and our marriage define who I was rather than me defining who I am.

Our 16 year anniversary is tomorrow and we have decided to meet at a restaurant bar and have a beer and an appetizer. I plan on giving STBXWW a card with a handwritten note about us not intending to take the path we are taking but we are none the less taking this path. Definitely not a "thank god i'm rid of you"...I know it will be well received.

That's it for now!