Ok, just when I found my footing, I get the world pulled out from underme again
Yesterday H took 1/2 day off work, and picked S up from school to spend a little time with him, brought him home and spent an hour here, having fun, we laughed, it was relaxed and nice, then I said I had plans to see BGF, so he took S, and said to text me when I was back, which I did, he came back with S and we spent some more good time together as a Fam. Said he was off to go watch a game with his BF, and left - all was good.
But then a couple hours later my BGF texts me sayin somehow she ended up at the bar down the road with her H, MY H, and his friend Now BGF H works for H, and they had a bit of a fall out, but now are friends again, cause H has become more of his old self again. Now I would NEVER stop my BGF from going and sitting by her H for the eve, I just felt hurt by the whole scenario. Here I was, at home looking after S, and there 'our' group is, sans me
Made me feel so sad.
Then the cherry on the cake is H came to fetch S this morning for school, all HAPPY, and WHISLTING and SINGING as if life is just sooo dandy now without me, and it just reaaaaally hurt me beyond belief, that I'm still trying to 'get over' him, and he's having such a fab happy life without me Makes me sad that the man I loved and cherished so dearly can 'get over' me so quickly
Deep down I know I'm not worthless, and that a gazillion men would love me, but it just hurts - you know
So there goes all my positive momentum....poof......
