CeMar, Thanks for the advice on the testosterone. He was checked two years ago, and found to have very low levels. Since then, he has taken monthly injections (which of course, are MY fault, eventhough it has more to do with his health than our sex life), and his levels have been normal (although in the low normal range) for over a year now.
We do not have kids yet. We have only been married seven months. I would very much like to have children, and I guess I hope that maybe that will even us out, but that is not a good reason to have kids! While there are many other reasons that I want children, I do know now would not be a wise time to have them. My h will make a wonderful father, but I think we have to work on being a good marrieds first.
But I identify with those that want to lower their sex drive. I get so angry with myself for continuing to want sex with someone who so obviously doesn't want it with me. I mean, how degrading is that? About as degrading as repeatedly begging for sex gets. If I could stop wanting him, I would. It would make my life easier, and I could definitely use the extra sleep! But then I feel that would be cheating myself in a way. I mean, I don't want to be gross, but I LOVE sex! I love how energized it makes me. I love feeling that close to my husband. I love the feeling afterwards, of knowing we have shared something so special. However, sex isn't really as great for us as it used to be. I am so worried the whole time about whether it is good for him, that I forget to concentrate on me.
