Praying and Living

[Holly06]

Don't know why I find myself here again, but here it goes.

Since Christmas, TJ and I have seen each other, and continued a text conversation. It has been fun, and sweet. He is still dragging through this crisis, and I am afraid to put it in writing, but I think he is in acceptance. Don't have a scan of his brain, but his actions, behaviors and words say he is resolving his issues.
Then about 8 weeks ago I received an amazing text.He wanted to buy a vacation home with me. He set it up, and 5 weeks later we had a bid and a purchase agreement.
I got the speech each of us dreams of when we know your spouse is coming back. The end result of all this is, we are seeing each other, and trying to put our relationship back together again.
It has been 4 1/2 years, a divorce, with all the MLC trimmings.
We are planning a future. We are spending time with the kids, and each other.
I would not say he has expressed determination to see this through. He is not sure he loves me, but his actions are so loving. I know this takes time. I'm in no hurry.
For the first time in SO long, pain is not my constant companion.

We did have a premature return 2 years ago. But really, this confirmed for me that this pattern was going in the right direction.

I am making my faith my primary relationship in my life.

It was in my power to keep the relationship cordial and respectful. I did this for me. I never got nasty, or irrational. I just accepted.

I have made many friends along the way. I probably won't post much anymore, as I will be spending time with TJ at our new place. Then school starts, and I have the added burden of taking a college class to keep my licensure. I'll be busy.
Just wanted to pay back all the hope that I received here.

If you continue on this path, I would like to add a bit of my own advice.
Do what will make your life more livable. If you want a shot at making a return to your marriage, do what is right, and good.
I can live with whatever the outcome because I conducted myself with dignity and grace. I believe that is very attractive.
Good luck and God Bless you all, and support you through this time of your life.
Holly