It took a lot to get to the point where I am and I know I still have a long way to go. I don't not feel within myself that I have entirely dropped the rope as I should but I am working to that point.
I realized that all while my W was holding on to the past 10 years and how 'terrible' and what a waste they were. I too was holding on to the 10 year but only the 'good times' and tried to convince myself it was worth saving. When I thought about our R and how it will never be the same no matter what, either it will be better than what it was or we would be worse, it was then easier to 'let go.' I don't want the R we had for the past 10 years.
And since, either way you look at it, with or without my W, in any R I may have I would had to rebuild just like starting all over again. ====================================
About responding to W's TM. Keep in mind that my W does not have the advantage I do and have access to all your great advice. She only knows her way of doing things. Me not responding to a TM is not me GAL, to her it is her being ignored. AS it is now we are still heading for divorce and I don't want to make it any worse than it has to be.
M: 27, W: 25 Together since: 01/31/00 M: 10/4/09 (8 Months) ILBNILWY: 01/24/10 EA confirmed: 02/10/10 (Busted). Road to Reconcile began: 07/10/10 Retrouvaille: 09/10/10
