the other night she nudged me in bed asking if i wanted to fool around, but i had to make it a quickie.
when i took care of everything (check on kids/close their door and mine, as well, and got the lube out), i noticed that i wasn't so hard, and of course i started to think about it, and that played with my mind, but i didn't let it get to me, and i wound up lasting longer than a quickie!
we went to a friend's house for the fourth of july, and when we got back around 11, she said that she would've fooled around again, but she was having very bad cramps from something she ate. i was fine with that; no problem. we went to sleep. no angst.
i hinted about fooling around last night, but she said she was too tired from the sun.
am i being selfish now? it sounds like it, but i know why: we are back to the same old routine. she got her monthly maintenance, and i now won't have sex again for another month.
last night wasn't good; tonight is no good because her sister is sleeping over; then something else will creep in, and before you know it, it's august!
morning sex never happens, because she needs to just relax in bed; spontaneous sex never happens because of the kids, the sunlight, it's too early in the day, etc.; nighttime is 50/50 because of fatigue and whatever aggravation develops right before bedtime.
this is where the frustration lies, and this has been pretty much the pattern for years.
no compromise, no solution, and as long as i don't complain about her lack of libido and romantic love for me, she's happy "as a pig in @#!$!" for her,the world is wonderful.
That pig in $hit may be her boinking another guy when ever the hell he feels like it.
