Spouse Suffering From Depression

[Lucky11too]

If only the heart could be as smart as the brain. Mentally I know this, but my heart still wants him. Stupid heart – why would I want someone who would treat me like that? The heart will catch up soon I’m sure, and I’ll be ready to move on and finding the joy in life again. I guess as much as I tried to prepared myself for this, part of me always believed he would chose me, which is obviously what is setting me back so far. I think I will get better as the week goes on, and of course will have my ups and downs as time goes on, but I’ll get there eventually.

For his b-day, I think I will just drop off the present at his mom's like I said I would, but that is it. No card, no cake, no text. At least this way, I can still acknowledge it without having to come off as too mushy or too pursuing (and, it's too late to return his gift anyways). Funny enough, H told me during our talk to not come down and try to surprise him at work or leave little gifts in his car. What world is he in? Don't worry, I won't! If everything else wasn't so horrible, it would almost be humorous!

Thanks Awest for all your words and support. It sure has been a tough week, but your support has made it a little easier!