I guess if I look at my sitch honestly and what my actions have been over the last 5+ months my H has been gone, I never truly dropped the rope threads and let him go. I have a few threads still attached for fear that he would NEVER come back.
Now, with his deployment, the only interaction we have is via email and phone. Even with these limited communications, I still have threads attached.
In some ways, (Maybe ??) he does too. he sends me am email sometimes out of the blue to let me know about his day. He was telling me that he is working with you know that General who recently passed out at a Senate hearing (didn't want to post his name, but those of you who follow the news know who i am talking about).
When he initiates, I have always answered his calls or messages almost immediately. I know.. BAD THING TO DO! I am grasping for anytime with him (so that he knows I care). How do I move beyond this? I spent time with family and friends over that last few days, went back to work, and just trying to get out of the house we built that has so many memories..
How to detach when your heart threads are still tied?.... not sure.
Me 41/H 49 M 12yrs No Kids Bomb 1/10/2010 H Deployed The three great essentials to achieve anything worth while are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense. T. Edison
