Hi Awoken, Glad to hear you had such a wonderful vacation with your kids. It must be very hard indeed, to be without your kids while they're with their mom. It sounds like you get a lot of your energy from their presence, so when they're gone it leaves you feeling low. Perhaps though, you need that time to process your feelings about what has happened, even though it's so confusing and doesn't feel good while it's happening? You've mentioned your regret over your mistakes in the M, and your desire to deal with them, a number of times. Maybe turning it into an action might help you with this? What kinds of things do you think you need to do in order to feel like you've dealt with them?
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
