LSG: sorry that things are so down for you right now. It sounds like you are pretty depressed. Not that I blame you, as it's hard in this situation to not be. You need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Are you exercising every day? Eating healthy? What practical steps are you taking to GAL (Get a Life) and 180s? If you haven't read DB or DR you may not fully get those concepts, but you need to! Is there a library where you can go and see if they have some of the books discussed here since you can't purchase them? You truly need something to help find your inner strength. Without it, it's hard to find the motivation to tuning back into a strong, confident person who knows they deserve more than this! You obviously do - but you need to believe that for yourself!
