It sounds like you have a lot of things filling your time.
How about considering some things you've never done but always wanted to do?
Example for me.
I always wanted to learn to ride a horse so I started horseback riding lessons.
You did not choose to have your life thrown into turmoil so I know this is unsettling.
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It's like living on another planet here..so far from everyone I know. And very isolated. With my H gone so much for work these past 3.5 years, I have learned how to be alone..so I guess I'll be prepared if the marriage doesn't work out. I never was much of a loner..I like to talk and do stuff with people.
This would suggest to me that you have lost YOU in this M.
Your focus has been on H and your M.
Which is good and bad. I am going to find a little piece i have posted on here about being interdependent rather than co-dependent in a realationship.
For now your task is to detach and do things for YOU.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
