For the past couple of days my W and I have been getting along while preparing for her to move out and me to take over home. We went through some old stuff, she cried after seeing some things from our past when we were happy.
We sat up and talked for about an hour trying to figure out what went wrong and how quickly it fell apart. Both of us have a lot of regrets.
She seemed very genuine and even sent me some flirtatious text messages the next day. We both talked about how someday our paths may cross again while being seperated.
I got home last night and she went out to run some erronds. I checked the computer "keylogger" and saw several emails to OM. They talked about her new place, she sent him pics of things she wanted to buy. Then he asked if he could see her tonight.
I guess I always thought it was just an EA and never wanted to admit that it could be a PA. Still don't have real proof but I can only assume the worse. It made me so angry that I confronted her about it. Nothing positive came out of it but now the feelings of betrayel have taken over any feelings that I did have left for my W.
I pray that the re-fy goes through so I can move her out and start the healing process. I've never felt so much pain before, I hope I can bounce back and get these thoughts out of my head.
M: 36 W: 29 S: 2.5 EA: 2/2010 OM1 D Bomb: 3/2010 PA: 6/2010 OM2 W moved out 8/2010 Loc: DE, USA
