Pinhead - thanks, your words make such sense and really resonate right now. I do feel I have benefited from all of this, bitter sweet benefit really.
And I'm starting to really focus on what I want now, which I havnt done for YEARS. So thats good at least!
H phoned at S4s bedtime last night, was late and asked if he was still awake, I said no put him down already, and he said oh dear, I guess I'l see him in the morning then, and made a point of telling me he was off to go watch a game at his BF house. He seems to be making a point of telling where he's going and what he's doing lately, not that I've ever asked or crowded his needed space since he told me all of his feelings.
Dont know what to think of that, it could be a good or a bad sign , but to tell the truth, I'm getting so tired of trying to figure out the puzzle Its exhausting....
I reckon I've done all the right things since the get go with regard to DBing, so whatever the outcome is I know I gave it my all....
Theres an eclipse on sunday for pisces, said to bring a big fat nexpected love suprise especially for those born on the 9th (ME!!!!YAY!) How exciting! I wonder whats going to happen!! Ihope something does, even if its a new stranger that comes and whisks me off my feet!! Would be a refreshing change!
Its exhausting....