journaling. squash night was not bad. i played very well today. nearly broke my racquet colliding with a newbie though.
i wore cute shorts to play. the guy from sunday squash league was there - i think he knew i was going to be there. the new guy made every effort to talk to me. h said he wasn't a very skilled player. and h did not like him. i don't think h noticed the new guy chatting me up. i ended up playing with h and i showed a lot of improvement in my game. i even surprised myself!
h was very evasive about what he's been up to though. he mentioned that he had gain some weight recently. i asked how that could be? and he just shrugged his shoulder. i know where he was so i didn't press him for answers. he has been looking a bit porky/flabby lately. but i still look great!
i ended up leaving before him.
when i talk to him, it's like friends. i brought up the nhl draft and just general weather stuff. it's been really hot in the east coast.
i just need some advice on my interaction. should i be going dark? or should i ignoring him? i'm not offering any help or anything. just general chit chat. am i doing anything wrong? i read that success story about the guy who's wife left him but he continued to be a friend to her. eventually, the friendship brought them back together. is there anything wrong with that?
i wasn't mean, short, or rude. i didn't watch his games. i watched others play when i wasn't playing. often he makes eye contact with me when he plays with others (as if to say "my teammate sucks") but i totally ignored his eye contact.
can i get some guidance? i'm still working on me. but i need to check in with the vets to make sure i'm on the right path.
btw, i think the new guy is way younger than me. somehow i seem to be attracting the younger guys these days. could be that i look 23. i'm not trying to look younger than i really am. i just look young - no wrinkles, no cellulite, no tummy, and i have the energy level of a twenty-something. i still get carded at the casino.
it's scary being single. it's hard to find the right person.
