Well here I am now. Moved over from DBD

[ImprovedRomeo]

g450, I can so understand that feeling. And special occasions are the hardest, especially the first time around since the only frame of reference is the previous year or some other special year where you were a family, had a wife, living the dream and now it's all gone. The best thing you can do for next year is to make this time special by doing something special for you. That way next year you can look back and say 'if I could do that then I can do something even better now'

Yes you're right in thinking that calling her won't accomplish anything. It'll be a huge back slide...you don't want to go there. It's like with my STBXW I told her, among other things, when she came to rifle through the household stuff 'we sold most of the redundant stuff remember? because I thought we were getting together for good'...she just went quiet for a few secs but I bet she thinks I'm such a chump still hurting that she's left me. I can't take those actions/words back...don't do it. Be strong, you'll be OK!

Do you have activities you can do to keep busy? working out/social get togethers/hobbies? It really helps to keep your mind occupied with things that are of interest.