OK, so tonight is the first night that I am home completely alone. Kids are gone / H is obviously gone. Cried a little bit this morning when oldest D left to go back home - other than that, I've kept it together today. I worked, went to IC, got my hair done, came home - cleaned my bedroom and kitchen - and now I'm facing the fear - finances. Didn't contact H all day - felt calm.
H took oldest D to airport out of town. She called very upset - said that dad got a speeding ticket at the airport and got belligerent with the police officer. If you knew my H prior to the last few months you would know this is completely out of character. Shook D up - said she thought he was ill. She said he won't let anyone in - just is kind of shut off from any emotion or anyone. I have to admit - I'm glad someone else who loves him can see the changes - kind of validates my perception.
Didn't figure I would hear from H - but surprise - he texted me about watching S play ball today and the parent drama at the games. I gave a simple reply of "Thanks for letting me know"
I will take the fact that he at least thought of me one time today and texted me. MWD says to "Think Small" - so I'll take it.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
