Ok. Thank you. That is very clear. I know that I seem to be frustrating you and I do not mean to do that. I appreciate all your help, I really do. And I am listening and will do it. I really will.
BTW, I have not called H/texted/emailed anything, him since Friday that I have initiated. i will quit responding to his but I wanted to put that I am able to not initiate contact, that is a good thing for me to do and I have managed it. It has been very hard, but I have done this much.