Standing tall for myself--forever & ever, amen.

[beingreal]

Oh Eric..Thank you. Since it's on you, I think I'll step out of the comfort zone & try that Car Bomb now.

Seriously... what you have been through makes me ashamed to think that I've ever had it so hard. Your will to live has been incredible. And it has gone from a "F You! Just watch me!" attitude to a "I don't care if anyone ever sees this--I'm living for me." It's been an incredible metamorphosis. I know you've told me to go back & read your old threads--but I don't want to. I appreciate Eric, the man, just the way he is now.

I don't have to see how far you've come to see how special you are.

You have nothing to prove to anyone, my friend.



True... I will sip slowly. No crutches here. I made the choice over the weekend to step a little further into the light--on my own. No one can hold my hand and protect me from what is going to happen.

No one should. This is all on me from now on.

Breathtaking. And terrifying.



I've realized that I'm going to have my really good days... and I'm going to have my really bad days. It's just part of it.

My friends will appreciate the good days.

My best friends will understand that the crazy train does sometimes go off the tracks. Those are the folks who will gently put me back on the tracks--assured that I'll eventually make it back to the station.

And don't ask me where the train analogy came from. lol

someone posted on another thread--I think PEIs, maybe?--about this journey, & this part of the process in particular, NOT being an either/or kind of thing. That is really good to know because I'm starting to feel a little bipolar here lately.

So to those that have already had their ticket punched and gone for a ride on the crazy train with me, thanks for not bailing. But hold on--I think I'm taking the scenic route on this one.



And now for my latest facebook status... because it's so damn relevant right now. For everyone...


You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see... but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.