I've felt different since I've been home. Maybe it's the vacation, or having gotten the papers, but my head is quieter. I feel a little more focused. Maybe it's some acceptance, and seeing a little more who I am now.
I think it serves me well to think about this in simple terms. And it's pretty simple. My main problem right now is how much I miss her. Going back to the goals I wrote... building a satisfying life for myself, and building a healthy post-D relatinship with her (with the primary goal being co-parenting) - missing her like this is the problem that's going to upset the apple cart. I still have crying fits. You know, Bill pointed this out - achieving the stability is going to be the key. The moment-by-moment decisions of how I'm going to respond. It's a matter of discipline, at least that's how I'm seeing it now.
