And I'm definitely beginning to think further of what life will be like once I'm back in my own home. Will H want to try with me? What will it be like between H and DD?
After our mess last week, we were both sobbing and he said all of his emotion revolved around DD. I never thought I could do life as a single Mom away from the rest of our family and he often said that the only reason he kept trying was for DD because he didn't want her to leave. After last week, and now me trying to do it on my own down there, will that just speed things along? Will he lead me on?
I now these thoughts show that I'm doing a really bad job at detaching and focusing on myself, but I'm new to this and finding it very hard to let go of him.
Also wondering, do I apologize for leaving last week and tell him I regret it? How do I let him know that I'd love to still work on things? Does it matter?
