Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

CG,

You are right she has told me that she wants me to work and provide for the family financially too. You are also right that I am looking for work too. There are some more details to the situation in the fact that we made decisions together whether I should pursue a particular position or not with the cost of daycare and her position. I should have just done what I thought was best at the time, but I live in the here and now. I have to do what is best for me now and the kids.

I have always told her that I appreciate what she has done and been very supportive of her role and made sure that she did not have to concern herself with the home and kids after work.

I have always done pretty much everything here for the family.

I know it is not enough, and the job market was so stagnant for the last 2 years. I am now receiving calls, and it is turning around for me, but it is a little too late. I cannot change that.

As for the OM, he works at the same company with her as a project leader, and he has been with the company for awhile now, so he earns a pretty good income.

I have choice whether or not take a 2 month position now that is low pay and make a committment to that or wait a little longer for a marketing analyst position that is long term, but is not guaranteed. It is more than twice the pay, and it will help me to provide for me and the kids, and the position has a possibility to become permanent. I need to make this decision in the next hour or so. This position is also at her company in a different building, so she would not even know I am there for awhile. I want this position and company and did before she took her job do to her bilingual ability. I went for the same position she is in now, but my Japanese language ability is not as good as hers, so she took the job.

It is decision time, and I don't want to make the wrong decision!