I am not in love with my H. I now know enough about who we were and who I am to know that there is no going back for me. I am only going forward.
How do you know you are not in love with H?
What does that look like to you?
When he dropped the bomb what did that sound like? From H?
Originally Posted By: PEI
My heart will always love him, he's the father of my kids and was my 'best friend' for years ... but we're different people now, and I've made peace with that. I wish him well. I really do ...
And your next R? Is this how love ends?
PEI I am asking tough questions because I have asked myself these questions.
I have been where you are almost exactly a month ago.
When we "wake up" we start to look at everything with new eyes...
We question everything because we can stand on our own.
We no longer NEED the answers from our spouse.
We have our own.
AND
If you read my piece on standing and that process...
We start to look at our spouse with critical eyes.
For me? That was saying to myself "what is the upside here?"
Mach said to me "do you want to die on this hill?"
Really?
Do I?
What does that mean?
There is more to the miracle PEI believe me.
There is.
There is more to learn about YOU.
There is more to learn about what love is.
These things
Originally Posted By: PEI
My heart is filled with compassion, peace and love ... for life, for myself, for possibility, for opportunity ...
Are your truth...
Do they apply only to you? And what you want?
Can your light shine on in the face of adversity?
In the shadow of doubt?
Sometimes you don't "feel" anything, and you just do what you are supposed to do. You will have faith that things will get better, and with cooperation THEY WILL.
