When I sit back and think about things, I realize that I have not truely let go. I let go a little and do some of the things I should do. Then, I find myself sitting back hoping that this will be the thing that wakes her up. I won't have to file myself because she will realize she needs help and it won't have to go any further.
I know it is my actions that get the results, not words or threats. I am constantly wondering if I am reading something wrong, should I do A or B? Is she telling me she needs my support that I haven't given her in the past?
I continually have to remind myself to do the right thing no matter how much it may hurt. There is no easy in any of this.
I did understand your response, thanks for always checking in. It would be great to sit down and have a few beers with people here in person, wouldn't it? Some things would be a lot easier. I do have a few people that I can do that with that have gone through this. It does help. This board helps just as much. Finding the words to relay my feelings at times is a challenge. Maybe I'll be able to write a book about this someday!
