I guess there is some truth to me wanting him to do what I want, in that I want this to not be ugly ... is that controlling? I don't think so, but I'll spend some time on it ... really looking at it.

I guess what I'm saying is that I AM sure of my footing. I'm moving forward for me ... and moving on too. My heart will always love him, he's the father of my kids and was my 'best friend' for years ... but we're different people now, and I've made peace with that. I wish him well. I really do ...

My heart is filled with compassion, peace and love ... for life, for myself, for possibility, for opportunity ...

Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc