Apparently my ramblings today are not coming across as I intend them ... let me try to clarify a bit ...
When I say I want him to 'get it' ... what I'm really hoping for is for him to not fight me on leaving the house. I don't want this to be a contentious, angry experience ... I hope he feels relief and freedom ... ultimately, what he feels is his business and his problem, I can't control it.
Originally Posted By: Mach
Right now, you don't trust yourself that your changes are real, why should he ?
Actually, I'm pretty solid in my belief about my changes. I see them in my interactions with others, I roll them around in my head at night ... I've been tested by circumstance and then retroactively considered the ease with which the 'new' me responded. I'm studying me, learning about me, growing. He may never see the changes ... it doesn't matter, they are not for him.
Originally Posted By: Mach
What bothers me , and it isn't just with you lately, is that you feel that you have to be one or the other right now.
Can you expand on this for me ....
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
