IMO....The condom issue is his attempt at making you hurt because he does. He want's you pissed at him. It makes it easier for him. He cannot understand how you can still be kind with him. He is confused...he is hurt...he knows he wronged you and yet you show kindness. Deep inside his heart - he knows he is F'd up...so he screams...(internally that is)...be mad at me Mila, be upset with me, make this easier for me, please mila just be mad at me.
Your loving grace will forever haunt him. He will regret his choices for a very long time...very long...BUT
It is no longer about him and you know it. It is no longer about his CONTROL over YOUR LIFE. It is all about YOU....
About you...your kindness, your heart, your soul, the beauty that is in YOU....let it shine girl...let it shine and keep moving forward with ALL OF YOUR DREAMS.
I thought about you last night Mila...thought about your strength. Thought about how much you have endure. Then....I smiled....I smiled cause I know that one day...in your next R (albeit with H or not)...that guy is one gonna be one lucky SOB.
Your a doll and whatever you do...don't let H change that. As scripture would say...in your anger do not sin.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
