IC: Yeah, but I haven't set up another appt since the birth. It's been too busy. I could set it up now though that the family reunion is over.
Thing is my IC doesn't really approve of me being back with WH! She says if we do get together, he would need to think of me more often.
It has been difficult with his family reunion being over. I LOVE his family. And they love me. When we parted last night at the farewell dinner, WH's grandparents were inviting me to their homes to visit in the future. Which is nice, but it sucks that it's just me and the baby. And then they were also making plans for Christmas. Which I won't be at fully. So it pisses me off.
WH yesterday in our talk said that he didn't want to take me away from his family. But I said that it's already done.
He doesn't want to be realistic about what this divorce means. He thinks everything can stay the same except he can be more free.
So it was a sad drive home last night without WH. It was really weird because even though we'd had that convo in the morning, the feeling at the reunion that evening was so familiar. So I felt that naturally he and I should be driving home together. But no.
The frustrating thing is that he's probably mourning for 'us' just as I am right now. But he still insists that we "can't" be together.
Grrr!
I'm starting to detach again, though. His frame of mind is ridiculous, childish, and immature. And I don't want that.
