One thing I've realized with DB is that while I keep a small "flame of hope" burning, with the desire for my WAW to decide to reinvest in our M, I don't "expect" her to come back. The things I try to do for myself, I'd be doing if she had passed away or divorced me. Things that I should have done ages ago.
The things I do around her (being calm and patient, being a loving father, listening better) are all traits that will serve me well regardless of how my R ends up.
I'm not saying it's easy; far from it. It's the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. I keep wanting to have her look at me and give me one of her smiles that caught my heart 13 years ago. But I'm slowly starting to accept that this might not happen, that she may just have walked too far.
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We all deserve love that fulfills and enriches us; love that heals, not hurts.
