My Story

[botanygirl]

Thank you for your reply and all the info. I have almost finished the divorce remedy book. I have tried to put a number of the techniques into effect. My problem is that I am having difficulty making them last.

I have completely stopped calling him and I really only call when it is necessary. I realized a while ago that calling gets me nowhere and he just doesn't answer the phone which makes me feel worse. So this is one thing that I have been able to do but even though I have done that I haven't seen any change and when I do have to call he still doesn't answer his phone unless he is at work.

The hardest thing for me right now is his going out at 12-1am and staying out all night. He is getting no sleep and I know it is just making everything worse. His behaviour is so juvenile I sometimes think he is my 2yr old!

I have gotten better about saying nothing but sometimes I just lose it and it usually happens on the weekend. So I will go all week being good and keeping things civil but by the end of the weekend something will trigger me and I am making things worse. I see that now but at the same time I get so angry b/c he has done all this horrible stuff and yet somehow it is all my fault.

I know I have to pick myself up by the boot straps but I guess I just have this fear that if I do all of this and it still doesn't work I will feel rotten that I did all of this and still came up empty. Again I guess this is something that I have an issue with and need to work out.

Thank you again for the reply