Geesh, I am bummed tonight--our C dropped us. Yeah, the one I had the hots for. Basically, we are wasting our money. H spins another fantasy about how he's done everything and it's ME that won't communicate.
I know, I'll find the humor in this tomorrow or so. H has NO intention of leaving--just says it for? Bravado? Not sure. Nothing in his demeanor says he's going anywhere. 6 years ago he was leaving and I KNEW it--lost weight, was out every night, stopped calling me "mom". THAT was a scary time for me.
This time he's just...blah. Not doing ANYTHING. Just a lump on the couch complaining to whoever. Words being my main LL, this just gets me to my core. I have worked so FREAKING HARD to make him happy and he is just SO unappreciative!!
And my poor son--what kind of marriage example is this!?! I feel so bad for him.
Ok, I've had my pity party I guess. I will be OK. I need to stop feeling sad--it get me no where--where's that lovely anger that makes me SO PRODUCTIVE!!
