Mila and Punkin,

Thank you ladies.

Pleasant, but distant has been how I have been handling my sitch so far. I stopped pursuing ever since the second month when H told me again that it was over and had been for a long time.

Yesterday, we baled hay again. S26 texted his dad and told him he didn't have to come to bale for us. We had enough people to cover it. H showed up anyway. When I headed out to the hay loft I was smiling and ran into H who smiled at me. I didn't say anything to him.

Later. I sent D11 up with water for H who was baling and sons. D11 told her dad that the water was from mommy, and H said that was sweet. D11 sat on the tractor with him for a while and H got a phone call from ow. He spoke harshly to ow and told her he was baling and that he would be there in time to get ready for the grad party they had to go to. He then said bye, and hung up on her.

Like you mentioned Punkin, I don't want to scare him back in. It's such a fine line to walk...