I'm glad you got some closure. Thru this process you have learned so much--which all of us would say we'd rather not have learned! But you gave it your all.
You know about the waves of grief. Acknowledge them, feel them, ride them out.
Other posts were talking about the feeling of shame and humiliation. Yeah, it's there. Makes no sense, but I felt it, and still feel it. I think many of us do. Hopefully we can think and grow our way out of that feeling.
