He doesn't want me, he threw me away, why won't he leave me alone?
Honestly, did he throw you away? doesn't he want to stay M but on his weird terms? That's not throwing you away. You have become a person that is capable of leaving him in the dust and he is not used to that. You have finally 'gone dark' and he doesn't know what to do about it.
I know you're living apart due to his job. If it wasn't due to that would you be officially or legally separated?
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
