Flo, thank you for the info on telling the kids. Originally that "talk" was going to happen last night, but H and I ended up talking for hours and we were both emotionally exhausted after that so it hasn't happened yet with the kids.
In retrospect, that is probably good. I am going to do a little more research on what teenagers need when getting this information and blow in their lives. This will be a shock for them. I am not looking foward to it at all.
The good.... I probably have more closure than a lot of people in my sitch get. H and I talked a lot. He is done. Plain and simple. He is believing that life with me doesn't "fit" him and he is not willing to do MC or any of the other boundaries I have set. So, there are no options.
The not so good.... this sucks. I had such high hopes at the start of piecing. I am trying to wrap my mind around the very definite reality that my H is making abudantly clear. We are done. A twenty year M is done. I am still in shock. And, I am still struggling with waves of grief that are very intense.
Today, I am needing to just get through the day at work. I am hoping tomorrow I will feel a bit stronger to start my next steps.
I will be OK, and eventually I will be fabulous!
Once the kids are told and separation is official, I will acknowledge my new reality by starting a thread in the big D. A place I never thought I would be. But, that's ok.
