You sound so strong. FWI - I am proud of you girl. You keep going. Your life is your to define. To make of it what YOU want. Keep living...keep feeling...keep moving forward.
One day, I have no doubt that you will look back on this and realize so much about you, about life.
God Bless you Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans