No. I say nothing to him about it. I'm too scared to. Totally my problem and I can't work my way through it. Honestly, I've tried and tried and come up with dialogue on my head of what I want to say to him and then when I'm face to face with him I can't do it! It sickens me. Of course, I've never been able to stand up for myself in my entire life so why should it start now? I'm trying.....really I am.
You should try and be harder on yourself, Mish Honestly, "It sickens me", "I can't do it", "I've never been able to stand up for myself my entire life who why should it start now" Those ain't happy thoughts nor are they helping you to get to where you want to be. Firstly, "I can't do it" is "I choose not to do it at this time" and you've never stood up for yourself ever in your life? I think that's an exaggeration, don't you. We all have certain situations that make us tongue tied but there are many others where we do speak up. I'm sure you have to. Now, what is it about talking with Gabe that makes you feel this way? What is your worst case scenario if Mish speaks up? What do you fear will happen? What is the evidence that this will happen? What would you do if it did happen...Is your fear of what might happen likely or even rational? Think about it.
