I hear and feel your position all the way, I have felt in your shoes with my Fiance. I felt like he would never go and that he was suppose to be there as I was. With this I feel like my actions showed that I took him for granted. But now I am improving myself and seeing our codependency for one another was the barrier I placed in front of myself to not go forward or commit and routinely discipline myself.
All the faith to you I know where you are in the feelings of guilt and going back and forth with how and who you were, but this forum has been helping me re-juice every time I find myself doubting who I was.
I am scared too but I have to accept the Universe has been telling me this all along and as I wasn't listening by repeating the same bad habits and going back to the same ol' situations. Now the rug that has been pulled out from under me has allowed me to bump my head and see what is in front of me as it has been screaming to be taken care of this whole time.
Me:25 fiance :29 about to be 30 in Sept. together: just about 7.5 years situation: separated 2.5 months
